Homesick and letting go of it

Today I went to see a movie called ‘Tuintje in mijn hart’ which is Dutch for ‘Little garden in my heart’. It was a nice movie and what made it really special was the country where it was shot: Surinam. That’s where my sister Debbie and I were born and raised. Surinam lies in the North of South America, above Brasil. The nature in Surinam is fantastic, like the Amazon, and it will always have a special place in my heart. When I watch a movie like this with all these amazing views, I get homesick and have nostalgic moments. I can almost smell the trees in the jungle, feel the cool water of the brown river on my hands and hear the roaring apes in the distance…

Then I’m back in reality. I remember why I’m in Holland at the moment. One of the reasons is my personal development, to see and experience more from the world. But Surinam is like the movie: a little garden in my heart. Sometimes I unintentionally neglect the garden because I’m busy with other stuff, but at moments like this I remember how much this country, especially the nature of it has meant and still means to me. I enjoy the moment, live through it but don’t keep hanging in it. Because being homesick now and then is okay, but staying in it is not. It will keep you from moving on with your life. As I have experienced it myself in the past, it is very frustrating to be in one country physically and mentally in another. The only thing that will happen then is that you will feel miserable and lost all the time. At such a point the best thing to do is to realize why you’re where you are at the moment, choose consciously for being there and appreciate the positive sides of it. Then treasure the memories of your home country like a little garden in your heart…